Slow Down, Little Girl

Claire, who turns 6 in three days, and who is bursting to learn everything in the whole wide world, has been going to Japanese pre-school for almost three years now and homeschooling in English Language Arts.  We have been going over this decision over and over in our hearts and heads–will we send our kids to Japanese school and homeschool? Or just homeschool? Or will we send them to the American school where Keith teaches? After praying and praying and praying, we were both getting the same baffling answer over and over: that this was our decision to make, and that He will be with us (and our children) whatever we decide.  Anyone else out there prefer to just be told what to do on the biggies?? Yeah, me too.

So, after much ado about everything, Keith and I made a really big decision on behalf of our children a few weeks ago. Our kids will go to American school. If you’d like to hear all the pros and cons, just gimme a call. I’ve got lists. But that’s not what we’re doing in this post.

So our brave and wonderful firstborn had quite an adventure and quite the lesson in change and flexibility! She did GREAT. I was a mess. I cried for two days straight. In two eventful days (because she needed to start school the next Monday), she said goodbye to all her Japanese yochien friends, had FIVE immunization shots, was academically assessed because her parents couldn’t agree on what grade she should be in (Daddy was right–First Grade it is), went shopping for school supplies, clothes, shoes, and more, got a very dramatic “big girl” haircut,” and had to deal with her mom’s sentimental crying and staring throughout the duration of it (hello!!! my daughter went from pre-school to First Grade in like 2 days!!). So she’s been in First Grade for 2 weeks now, and she’s doing AWESOME! Her teacher is both a believer and a remarkable teacher, her best friend Lydia is in her class, and Claire is absolutely thriving.  So here are a few photos of her first day, and then at the end, the lyrics to a song from Mamma Mia that made me cry last Saturday night. You can just look at the photos if sappy’s not your thing, but I couldn’t resist.variety-of-recent-pictures-050.jpg

First Day of School

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Claire was beyond thrilled to join her best friend Lydia’s class!

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And there she goes…

And here comes Abba, strangely capturing my emotions the last two weeks:

Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile
I watch her go with a surge of that well-known sadness
And I have to sit down for a while
The feeling that Im losing her forever
And without really entering her world
Im glad whenever I can share her laughter
That funny little girl

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Do I really see whats in her mind
Each time I think Im close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers all the time

Sleep in our eyes, her and me at the breakfast table
Barely awake, I let precious time go by
Then when shes gone theres that odd melancholy feeling
And a sense of guilt I cant deny
What happened to the wonderful adventures
The places I had planned for us to go
(slipping through my fingers all the time)
Well, some of that we did but most we didnt
And why I just dont know

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Do I really see whats in her mind
Each time I think Im close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers all the time

Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
And save it from the funny tricks of time
Slipping through my fingers…

Slipping through my fingers all the time

Schoolbag in hand she leaves home in the early morning
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile…

About cashclan

Lisa is a grateful, born-again follower of Jesus Christ who has spent her adult life on the Gospel in several global contexts. She is the wife of one wonderful, jungle-gym of a man, who is to her the single most ravishing piece of flesh on planet earth (stolen good-heartedly from Christine Caine). She is a dedicated home educator to their four beautiful children, ages 6 to 12, whom she would be happy to gush over any time. She is an avid reader and a storyteller, an aspiring writer, a missionary to the nations and a singer of His praises, a loyal friend, an obsessive-compulsive Googler, and comedienne extraordinaire on her best days. She would also like to think that she is a loyal and loving, truth-telling friend.
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5 Responses to Slow Down, Little Girl

  1. Starr says:

    “…Then when shes gone theres that odd melancholy feeling
    And a sense of guilt I cant deny
    What happened to the wonderful adventures
    The places I had planned for us to go…” TOO MUCH. CAN’T TAKE IT. TOO TRUE.

  2. jonathan says:

    Thanks for the story, because my little girl is never leaving home now! The boys can go save the world for Jesus, but I’d prefer to just keep my little princess right next to me for eternity.

  3. Brooke says:

    Wow! I remember when Claire was just a curly-haired little baby! (: Time really does fly, and I hate to tell ya, but she’ll be 12 before you know it! Yesterday my Claire and I were eating in a restaurant and I kept hearing this baby laughing. So I got all sentimental about babies and was telling Claire about some cute things she used to do, and then I turned into my mother: I actually walked over to the sweet little family and told them “Your baby is so cute. I’ve been sitting here listening to her laughing and having a good time. Enjoy it, because it goes really quickly. This is my baby and she’s 12.” Of course Claire was horrified and when I turned around she was already out the front door! LOL

  4. It has taken me 30 minutes to read your post… I am still sobbing!!! You truly captured all I’ve been feeling! And how amazing is my God?! Your post is yet another answer from Him assuring me that we made the right choice and that HE is in control!!! He adores my princess so much more than I would ever be able to imagine!!

    Wow… is this going to be this hard EVERY time? And you have an entire soccer team!! Who knew being a mommy would be this difficult?! And yet… here we are ready for more!! We just found out that we are expecting our 3rd Munchkin! I’m only 6 weeks along.

    OKAY… enough of that… I’m going to find ABBA on Itunes so I can cry some more…

    Thanks for sharing your heart… you’ll never know how much it has touched mine!!!

    Cindy

  5. Debra Thomas says:

    Lisa,
    I totally understand the agony of making such a decision. However, when we trush His leading, we can never lose our way.

    May the Lord bless, continue to guide and keep you guys as you release your baby into His strong, loving and capable hands!!
    Love,
    Debra

    P.S.

    Speak the Word over her and claim His promises for her (and all 4 of them)daily. He is faithful!!

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