Adam started taking the school bus to yochien last week. And this morning, the experience morphed into some weird metaphor for something in my life, but I can’t put my finger on it. You see, every day, mostly either because I hate getting out of bed and/or because I’m addicted to my coffee/email time, I end up putting off several vital things that must be done (like getting Adam dressed, packing his lunch) until about 15 minutes prior to the time I should be walking Adam to the bus stop. A nasty habit, I know. So several days a week, I’m running around the house like a madwoman from 8:13-8:27am, trying to get everything done. And so then I have to get Adam out there by 8:28, ready to be picked up. (He really loves riding the bus, by the way. He informed me today that he hopes he gets to ride the bus forever.) And I rarely actually look at the clock in the few minutes right before I take him out there. So then we walk to the bus stop, I regret not having glanced at the clock before we left. The entire time we stand there and wait (admittedly, usually only about 3 minutes), I fret,
“maybe I didn’t make it on time…maybe it’s 8:29 and it just passed by before we got out here….or maybe I was really fast and it’s only 8:23 and it won’t be out here for 5 more minutes…but probably not, it’s probably too late rather than too early…maybe I should run back inside and see what time it is so I’ll know when the bus is coming….But then what if it comes while I’m checking what time it is and then we miss it…Dangit! I should’ve looked at the clock.”
And by the way, we’ve never missed the bus yet. As I walked back to the house, after having gone through this drama at the bus stop (IN my head for Adam’s sake, so as not to teach him to think all crazy like his mama), and after yet again not having missed the bus, I had this distinct feeling like the Lord is trying to show me something in this…But I haven’t gotten it quite figured out yet.
Or maybe it isn’t a metaphor at all and I just need to get my butt out of bed and away from the computer in the mornings. And wear a watch.