“Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.” –Elizabeth Stone
To me, that is precisely what it feels like to be a mother.
When Claire won the talent show a couple weeks ago, the joy I felt went so far beyond anything I’ve ever felt at one of my own triumphs. And when she was ostracized by a mean girl a couple years ago at yochien, my fury was white hot. (My heartbeat quickened just now, even at the memory!)
When Adam’s eyes fill with tears and his lip quivers when he knows he’s done something wrong, the compassion it provokes is palpable. And when he chirps out something witty (as he so often does), the pride I feel over him makes me laugh out loud.
When Benjamin gets scolded and comes to me and says, “I’m sad,” my heart feels like it cracks just a little. But when he slows down for a few minutes to give me a rare snuggle, the warmth I feel is a balm for all my little heartaches.
And when little Sam looks at me and grins, milk trickling out of the corner of his mouth, joy tickles up from my tummy.
Being a mom is the most intense thing I’ve ever experienced. I thank God every single night that I get to be the mother of these precious children. I love them so much it hurts.
Happy Mothers Day to all the moms out there I love, especially mine.
P.S. Speaking of Mother’s Day, my sweet girl made me a color-illustrated, alphabetized! tribute, which I will keep forever and ever.
Among my favorites were:
My mom makes the best Dinner. (I must say I do! Last night was a delectable seafood curry.)
My mom Laughs a lot. (I’m so glad she notices this. I hope I never stop that, even in seasons of melancholy, like the one I’m in this month…)
My mom makes good Tea. (Moms with young daughters, you MUST buy THIS book! She begs me every single day of the week to do a page from it together…)
My mom gives me eXtra ice cream. (Really I don’t, but if she thinks so, that’s a sweet, harmless delusion I’ll not correct.)
My mom helps me do my Zipper. (My favorite!)